Go with the flow

“Why is everyone in my group confident and intelligent but not me.”

“Why have my peers, even the ones younger than me got achievements but not me.”

“Why are there people who have ideals and passions to follow, but not me.”

Surely many of you have had these above thoughts on your mind. At the moment, have you felt disconsolate and wanted to give up like me? It’s a joke and a blame that I have three number 9 in my numerology chart, therefore my ideals are too high so I sometimes compare myself with others and feel disappointed because I am always following the things that are out of reach.

At those times, I will let my sadness hit its bottom and then naturally my emotions will lead to the important milestones which I put effort into and achieved. For me, the most wonderful time was in high school, in my 11A3 class, there were 2 girls who were the best friend of each other, telling one another to study for the Geography competition in my province. She was selected but I wasn’t, I was just following her.

Joined the class with a bit bewilderment, I was like a kindergarten kid who was suddenly placed in class 3 where everyone studied hard and was fond of this subject. The first days in my class, I was really unremarkable and didn’t understand all of the information. However, after the times I was inspired by my dear teacher, I studied so hard day and night, sometimes until 11pm – 12pm. Although, I always slept at 8pm – 9pm, that’s how hard I tried because my sleep is the thing I love the most in my life.

I remembered I have loads of Geography’s homework beside the homework of other subjects. I finished all of the tasks assigned by my teacher. A fun fact nobody knew was that around a few months, two 200-page notebooks were filled up and my textbooks were totally worn out. After that, my hands were blistered and hurt but… I don’t know, the 16 years old me felt happy with every piece of everything she did.

And those day by day efforts didn’t go to waste, I won the third prize of the provincial level and I was also selected to take the exam for the South Olympic competition. My teacher was proud of me, my parents were proud of me (but they never said it) and I was too. Lots of the teachers in my school favored me, lots of the students in my school knew and befriended me. It was really a milestone in my journey which I overcame myself and the shyness as well as the nervous feeling on those first days to focus on studying everyday. Where there is a will, there is a way.

Looking back after 10 years, the age of 26 has lots of changes but I also have the same feeling with myself at the age of 16. After all, now I know that I can identify what is going on in my life to accept my emotions and… go with the flow on my journey.

Dear my fragile soul, take it easy and the rest will be steady!

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